Seeking Christ in A New Year

Wow, it's 2013, crazy! I love new year's day, mostly b/c we're off work and finally have time to sort through things like Christmas gifts and all the stacks of paper that have been piling up the last few weeks while we're all completely overtaken by Christmas. This year, I'm thankful to be starting a new year with a sweet little one asleep downstairs and a fabulous husband who I can't say enough good things about.

But even more so, I'm excited about new beginnings with the Lord. How can it be in the midst of all His faithfulness I still find myself in doubt, having questions of His goodness or why He doesn't stop evil when it's in His power to do so. Just being honest, those are things I've been struggling with. Not for myself - my life is extremely easy and blessed compared to most of the world. But that's just it. Why me, living in NC, blessed with amazing family and friends and a church that preaches the gospel and so many other millions lost in the traditions (lies) of their ancestors, false religion, poverty, and crime-filled communities. I know the answer is grace - nothing I've done, just God's grace. But what about grace for those people? What about those poor families in CT who will never have another Christmas with their sweet children? What about the children all over this world enslaved to human traffickers, or just unloved and uncared for? Why does Caleb have us and those children have no one?

Well, I'm on a mission this year to settle in my spirit that God is good, He does whatever pleases Him, and in His sovereignty He keeps this world spinning for the sake of those who will come to know Him. I don't get it, even though I know some of the church answers, but I'm determined to not be defeated by Satan again and again over these questions, doubts, and fears. Satan keeps bringing these same questions up, year after year, and I'm just plain sick of it. :-) So, I'm asking God to reveal Himself, not because He owes it to me but because I believe He delights to reveal Himself. Like He said, "You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart".

I'm looking forward to starting a new bible study by Beth Moore, "Stepping Up". I was given the workbook several years ago by a friend but this is the first time I've had opportunity to do it, not having another bible study I'm working on. So, up I go!

I'm also excited to start the Scripture Memory Team through Beth Moore's blog - check it out and join too! http://blog.lproof.org/2013/01/2013-siesta-scripture-memory-team-verse-1.html

So, if you think of me, pray I will be diligent to do the seeking and I know God will do the rest!

Many blessings to you for a fabulous 2013 - let's know Christ better at the end of it than we do now!